Welcome back to my irregularly scheduled blog post series. By the time you read this I will hopefully be up to my eyeballs in freshwater trout. I am writing this prior to my fly-fishing camping trip this weekend. But I've had a lot on my mind lately and don't like going for long periods without sorting out my thoughts. So here goes nothing.
Things Are Changing
For those who haven't heard, I am stepping back from full-time work with Over. It was a mutual decision, but one that I ultimately believe is the best step forward. I will continue contracting with them for the next 3 months, but I will no longer be in charge of creative direction for the app itself. I wish the team all the best.
Our house has now been on the market for a whole week. The anticipation and faith required in this season of life is truly great. But, I for one, am always excited by the challenges of the unforeseen. I've really felt more empowered lately to just trust God, I mean like really trust Him. There's a certain point you reach where you know you've done all that God has required of you and then it's totally up to Him. Now we just get to watch and see what happens next.
My wife has felt our baby move a few times, me not so much. I tried keeping my hand on her belly the other night to see if I couldn't feel anything... nothing. Patience is a virtue though. So we continue on in the planning of parenthood. I really enjoy getting to watch my wife grow into a new mother. There is a certain beauty to it all that's hard to explain. Sometimes I look at her and it's like I'm seeing her for the first time again. This is definitely a season I don't take for granted.
Things I'm Challenged By
If you truly love something let it go. Don't be afraid to fail. Just sit down and do the work.
All of these things swirl around my head. They are good sayings, inspiring even. But what does it mean to me in the next season of life? Sure, it's easy enough to go in to default mode of what I know I can do, but I would much rather feel what I should do. Really it comes down to being quite and learning to listen to my heart. The last thing I want to do is make the "safe" decision.
Words. Words are never enough. The word "love" is never going to change anything without legs to walk and arms to hold and mouths to kiss. I feel like the same is true with work. The word itself is good and noble, but never does any good without breaking a sweat. I'm finding it really difficult in this season to draw upon a newness in my work. It just feels like I've been labeled as one thing, and so I should just stick to that. When really I feel like I have so much more to offer.
Things That Inspired Me
The pursuit of anything worth pushing past your own (dis)abilities. A smile. Belly aching laughter. Delicious dark chocolate. The smell of a campfire. The great outdoors. A day of rest.