These thought are buzzing around my brain right now and I wanted to jot them down before they’re gone. I have really been feeling the need lately to get my self in order. And by self I mean all the ways that I am portrayed online. This online presence is really important, the way I see it, for the future. Not that I’m trying to secure my future, I know that’s a foolish thing to attempt, but I want people to know when they’re looking at something I did. I want whatever I touch to leave my fingerprint behind. Yeah, I like that analogy. So why this sudden pull? Well, first off, it’s not so sudden. This pull to make everything “seamless” has been the goal since day one. But, as in all of life, we have to make mistakes and learn from those before we can see where we want to go. I know I don’t roll out of bed each morning with the next big idea that will change the world and save humanity. Do you? So over the past few years I’ve been working and re-working my website and trying to find my place on the web. But what I’m coming to find is that I don’t want to live on the web. It’s a nice place to visit, but I want to live in the real world. I want to touch the earth and feel the warmth of another. I want to drink a pint of Guinness and eat dark chocolate. But somehow I feel like I need to bring all those things that make me who I am to the web.
Am I making sense? God, I hope so. I don’t want to rant, so I’ll wrap this up quick. I am carefully observing and dissecting a few select websites of people I admire online. I am looking at how they’ve managed to tie all of what they do in to one seamless experience online. But I’m afraid that even in this observation I could easily get lost in trying to become them, instead of just being myself. And that’s the last thing I want. So I am freeing myself to continue to make mistakes and not get things perfect. I am free to be who I am, as clumsily and weird as that may be. Thank you.